It is missing him I can tell
mourning his deft touch, firm but gentle hold
It has been in the filing cabinet drawer
in a muddle of discarded stationery
since the world
as I planned it
ended
It asks for Dad, but I cannot say where he is
instead I ask it about the last drawing it made
and it trembles, remembering pudgy three year old fingers
clutching it as they outlined a tigers sharp teeth
I was hoping for a memory of Dads art
as most of it is as gone
as he is
Then it tells me of the many years
stuffed in a drawer of tools
in the house I grew up in
where it and Dad
learned to forget what they had done together
in that glowing youth of expectations
and dreams
All too soon I will be older than
Dad was when he was taken
in the meantime his pencil and I
make new memories
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